May 2012
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I hate when people give me that sympathetic look and then give me special treatment.
TREAT ME LIKE A NORMAL PERSON!
This is why I never tell people what’s wrong with me.
People don’t know how to act and in return it makes you feel worse.
April 2012
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Headache won’t drag me down!
I’m on the way to the riverfront!
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It’s so nice outside. Ive missed 60 degree weather. I bought like 6 pairs of shorts yesterday! Hopefully my low self esteem goes away then I can wear them comfortably and maybe I can start wearing tank tops.
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“Love truth, but pardon error.”
– Fortune of the day
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This is crazy. I’m so thirsty. I’ve drunken over my daily oz of water( 86 oz) and the day isn’t over. Before I was struggling to drink 2 bottles of water.
Lately, I’ve been so thirsty but this is good, right?
Water is good!
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Friday Five!
1. I’M READING:
I don’t normally read 3 books but I couldn’t help it
Wake by Abria Mattina - I started this book first but had to stop because I found out the main character had the same type of cancer as me. It is such a good book but it has awaken some demons.
Flawless by Sara Shepard - PLL comes back on in 39 days. Enough said. I want to read all the books by the time it starts...
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Do nothing for 2 minutes! →
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“Live every day as if it were your last, because one of these days, it will be”
– Jeremy Schwartz
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my banana nut oatmeal makes my tummy hurt and I have a horrible headache :(
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Weight Obsessed World
I was overweight not to long ago.
I was obsessed with my weight , mainly, because I knew that it was affecting my health and I am pro health.
I lost all my weight so I am now normal weight.
A couple days ago, I realized how much weight affects people. That is a major thing they care about. Don’t get me wrong last year that was all I cared about too but I got healthy.
Yesterday, while...
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Diagnosing: not a walk in the park
Yesterday, I went to the oncologist.
I fell in love with him. I told him he reminded me of Dr. House. He wasn’t a jerk but he was very thorough. He said he didn’t think what they found on my liver was cancer and it certainly wasn’t causing my problems.
He went back to the theory of celiacs. He said I needed to wait for the biopsy results. He also thinks that I am b12 deficient...
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double edged sword
I took a pain pill. Once it kicked in I felt fine. It was eating at my stomach a little. I didn’t eat much. Then it happened again. I got ringing in my ears, sound became muffled, and my head was starting to hurt. I had to lay down.
It really is a double edged sword.
I just want to feel good like the song and play with my ferrets is that too much to ask?
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“Dr. Feelgood”
Doctor Won’t you come...
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That doctor visit was pointless. She told me what I already knew plus she kinda made me cry. I am just gonna wait for my regular doctor. Is it possible to sleep till May? Digesting food is not my friend and I would start juicing again except I have no energy :(
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Scared
Wednesday, I went to the ER and got a disturbing report and I found out my platelets are low (but not cancer low)which explains my bruising.
Anyways, my mom begged to get an appointment today before May and it is today.
I haven’t been scared to go to the doctors in awhile. I think ever.
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"Are you pregnant?"
my mom asked me this because I told her I had nausea again and to just take me home.
I want to FEEL BETTER.
I YEARN for a diagnosis when other people are scared of them.
I actually seek the doctor out, now.
I want the results no matter how bad they are. I want to know what’s wrong with me. This is going on for too long, 7 years to be exact.
I found my endoscopy papers in my mom’s...
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it was all a dream...not
I woke up this morning and thought it was all a dream.
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my best friend of 15+ years from California told meMONTHSago that she was coming to NY. (hold on, I’m starting to cry) I got so excited as the days got closer I asked her again and she told me yes and she would see me on Thursday April 12. When the day came I got so excited and ready to see her, I texted her on Wednesday...
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Today was the first day that I’ve taken a pain pill since the “overdose”scare on thanksgiving. I’ve been scared to take them and trying to live with the pain.
This morning my hips hurt and I knew I was going to the city so I took the smallest dose.
I ate breakfast and it felt like it was eating at my stomach so I ate tofu and rice.
I’m glad I took the pain pill...
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“True friends stab you in the front.”
– Oscar Wilde
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Im so tired.
I babysat for 5 hours.
Walked the dog for 1 mile+
I also carried a bike up a hill.
This is more than i have ever done recently.
I am supposed to go to NYC tomorrow to meet a friend, whenever I go to the city, I always walk loads. I just hope I have enough energy for tomorrow and I didn’t waste it all today.
Goodnight. Friday the 13th wasn’t so bad!
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“You’re amazing just the way you are. You are you.”
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i just found the cause for my nausea.
It is from my asthma medicine.
Breathing or nausea?
I think i’d rather breathe and be nauseous.
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